Friday, November 14, 2008


a lot of people use their blog to reveal their intermost thoughts. that would probably be a good thing for me so i could just get my feelings out in the open. like a form of therapy. but i guess i dont want other people, unless i am really close to them, to know what my intermost feelings are. i think i am afraid they will judge me. i am so impressed by people who can just let go and tell their feelings! there arent that many people i am that close to anyway. i wish there were more. i really dont have any close friends right now that are available to me. either they are too busy or they live too far away. i need some buddies i can just hang out with and talk to. as my kids would say i need to get a life! (thats because they were my life for so many years and now that they are grown i dont have one!) i have too much time on my hands. i really am not involved in hardly anything that would help me make friends. i live in a new place (if you call 2 years new) and i dont really have the motivation to get out and meet people even though i know thats what i need to do! weird huh? im going to venture out and make one admission. i am depressed! to anyone who knows me well this will be no surprise! is there anybody out there who is reading this who needs a friend?


Lori Hurst said...


I hope you don't mind me sneaking over from Laura's blog. I too don't put my personal feelings out in a blog (execpt when it comes to my daughter Jessie). I am very shy and don't make friends easily. I do know my blog has been a fun place to interact with others that have found it. In my case I told a member of my ward and word got around.

I am in charge of activities for the ladies in the ward, and if you don't mind I could send a calendar home with Steve - there are luncheons, Girls night out at a resturant, Quilting, Scrapbooking, Book club and a ton more ... if you don't mind a bunch of Mormon women! Ok, people bring guests all the time.

I don't know you all that well (and you might not even know who this is from!) but I know your husband and daughter. I will never forget when Steve came to my daughters funeral and was so kind, it really meant a lot to me.

Megan was Jessies teacher at church and she was so wonderful with her! At her reception, Jessie spotted her and said she looked like a princess. Megan stopped what she was doing and came over to Jessie and gave her a big hug and let her see 'Princess Megan' in person. It was the most exciting thing for Jessie! I will never forget the kindness Megan showed on such a busy day.

Your family is wonderful - therefore I know that you are wonderful. You are a lucky woman to have such great daughters and a wonderful husband.

Again - I hope you don't mind that I 'crashed' your blog!

Laura said...

Carol, I could use a buddy! We should go out to lunch. And maybe do a little shopping...

Laura Clutter

Carol Beck said...

laura, i was hoping you would say that! going to lunch and shopping sound great to me! those are 2 of my most favorite things to do!

Laura said...

Carol, I really do want to get together. However, I've been crazy getting ready for Thanksgiving (we will have 18 at our house), and my MIL's visit for the two weeks following that. After that life should slow down, and we can get together!

Carol Beck said...

ive been getting ready for thanksgiving too!

Liz said...

This is Liz again. I actually don't go to book club but Jen and Sarah both do and I know they'd love to have you. I'm not sure of time and day but it'll be on the sheet Lori sends home with Steve. I am often depressed as well. It runs in my genes and I didn't stand a chance. I don't blog much when I'm depressed but I appreciate reading that others struggle too. I wish I would blog more when I'm down but when I'm down, well, I'm DOWN! You do have such a fabulous family and that credit goes to you!---the CEO of your home. Come to girls night out sometime! We laugh and eat alot--what's better?

Leslie said...

It had been a while since I had been on blogspot...glad that I decided to read your back-log of entries.

I loved your honesty in this post. You are such an awesome woman, it is hard for me to imagine YOU feeling lonely and depressed.

I must say that I struggle with the same feelings. I too am new (7 months still feels new) to my home and area and feel very lonely at times. I know that you and I are in different life stages right now but I would love to have you as a friend! My three boys slow me down a little during the day right now but... I would love to cook you lunch (I love to cook)and hang out sometime! Maybe we could 'D'ecorate a Christmas craft together or the boys and I could come over and "play" some morning.

You are also welcome to come over ANYTIME (especially when our "super-husbands" leave us behind to go off and "save the world" together! HA!) When Thomas is home I am always up for dinner and a movie or shopping in the evenings!

Glad to hear that you are looking for a friend because I am too!