Friday, November 14, 2008
a lot of people use their blog to reveal their intermost thoughts. that would probably be a good thing for me so i could just get my feelings out in the open. like a form of therapy. but i guess i dont want other people, unless i am really close to them, to know what my intermost feelings are. i think i am afraid they will judge me. i am so impressed by people who can just let go and tell their feelings! there arent that many people i am that close to anyway. i wish there were more. i really dont have any close friends right now that are available to me. either they are too busy or they live too far away. i need some buddies i can just hang out with and talk to. as my kids would say i need to get a life! (thats because they were my life for so many years and now that they are grown i dont have one!) i have too much time on my hands. i really am not involved in hardly anything that would help me make friends. i live in a new place (if you call 2 years new) and i dont really have the motivation to get out and meet people even though i know thats what i need to do! weird huh? im going to venture out and make one admission. i am depressed! to anyone who knows me well this will be no surprise! is there anybody out there who is reading this who needs a friend?